September

Month of my birthday. It's been quite a downhill actually. Nothing been going smoothly for me and I'm not going to convince myself otherwise. Accepting things for what they are right now and just trying my best to cope here. I won't lie. Feels horrible, lonely and empty. Had days where I couldn't even fake a smile. Don't get me wrong though. I'm not feeling sorry for myself. I'm just trying to be real with what I'm facing and going through. I miss the times where I could just live my life and be able to love someone. I want to be able to look forward to things again. I've struggled this long so I doubt I'll quit now. But if I'm really honest, I am really surprised that I'm holding on for this long. If you're able to look into my world, there's really a whole lot of times where I really just want to give up and just stop trying. I want to try to share something positive to try bring my blog's mood up but I couldn't really think of one. Really sorry that it's been so dull and moody. But happy birthday to me soon ! To those who are still around reading my blog, Thank you for being here.