October / November

Well hello ! It's been quite some time. I really appreciate messages and emails coming in showing your concern for me. Honestly really thought people would've lost interest for a long time. But I really do appreciate the small few that took in the effort to convey some messages to me. As of now when I'm typing this out, am currently having fever and flu. But that's not why I haven't been updating here. Mentally yes, I've been really overwhelmed. Trying to understand what I really want right now. On one end, I really want to save all I can to clear out all my remaining debt as soon as possible but on another end, It is way too straining for me. Being tired all day, hungry and just sick of living for about two months now. I thought of posting what I had in month in October but.. I didn't. I wanted to stop posting so negatively. But I had nothing else to write about. Wanted to brighten up my blog and hopefully myself but it didn't end up happening. I'm just really burnt out. Will try to keep a more positive outlook for my blog from this point onwards ! On a side note, To cope with stress.. I did end up masturbating a whole lot more and was actually caught in the act when I was doing it near a public staircase. Wasn't actually sure how long he was watching but I hurriedly left after I noticed. Exciting but a little scary still. Thank you for being here everyone!