April Post

Hello you ! Hope everyone is feeling alright. It was such a busy month. Felt like a roller coaster, emotions were all over the place. Maybe I shouldn't be too honest on what I've did and post it up here. It did have some consequences. I'll just make it clear here yea, I'm not inviting anyone to do anything at all. So please do not think otherwise. Especially if you're someone that knows me personally. It's really awkward and I will definitely push you even further away or completely ignore you even if we have to cross path on a daily basis. That aside ! Not letting all of these get to me too much. Honestly really tired of being overwhelmed and feeling sorry for myself. I'd also like to apologize to everyone that tried to reach out to me the previous month. Been using the time to really know myself more and giving all the space I need to learn more on what I want in my life and future. I'll try to keep the posts here more safe for work yea. Hope you wont hate me too much for that. Even if there wont be anyone reading in the future, hope I would be able to look back at what I wrote and really continue to grow and not dwell on the past for too long. As for what I want right now.. Probably someone that could understand and comfort me physically. Been taking small steps on opening myself up more to people and trying to trust people to get into my space. I realized that being too guarded around everyone is not the way to go. Sorry if I scare some of you by my sudden personality change during work and please do continue to be nice to me ! I still do appreciate messages and your motivational mails. It helps a lot. Thank you for still being around for me. I love you all.